Thank You Life !
I remember a time in my life that was one of the most difficult and existentially threatening situations I had experienced up to that point.
A period in which I slowly began to get an idea… slowly started to understand what life might be about. At that time, it wasn’t clear to me that this was the moment—today I see it and know it—it was the moment when I started to set things on a different course.
Deep within me.
I felt lost, helpless, and very afraid.
My body had suddenly fallen ill – all of a sudden – that’s how it felt to me. I could barely move and was in great pain, day and night. There were some loving people around me who cared for and supported me with compassion – fortunately, so I didn’t feel completely abandoned. Without these loving, helpful people, I would have barely made it.
But the fear, the feeling of helplessness, and the feeling of being at the mercy of my own body, which was doing whatever it wanted and fighting against me, remained. An emotional roller coaster.
I didn’t know if I would get well again – no one knew.
I remember a very clear moment during that time. A moment of decision – deep within me – the moment that was absolutely crucial for the further course of events.
Often, we are so busy that we no longer perceive these subtle nuances within us—we fail to notice when the soul wants to speak to us, to guide us on our path.
During this time, I felt weak, my body was so ill, and that had paralyzed me. I searched for the path to myself and couldn’t find it – at first. Bravely, I focused on trusting, not wanting to give too much space to fear, and concentrated on faith and hope. And yet, there were also moments of despair and the longing for relief.
It was a torturous time.
My longing was heard. In a moment of deepest despair and hopelessness, something inside opened, very slowly and yet almost like a floodgate: I felt deep devotion and humility; a very unique feeling of acceptance regarding what is currently happening. A perception that is difficult to describe in words: Perhaps as „A surrendering, without wanting, allowing whatever happens to happen, trusting in being sheltered and protected – bound by a higher being.“ A feeling almost impossible to describe with words. It gave me security, and a sense of „Nothing can happen to me“ – it is good. Thus, I connected with myself and could hear what my soul wanted to tell me. And I found the way, my way.
I became healthy again.
I look back gratefully.
I remember well – before I got sick – that I thought at the time that I was close to myself, clear and conscious – today I say, I was light-years away from myself.
Back then, I made a promise—to my soul and to myself—never to go so far away again.
Thank you for allowing me to listen during this time. For it was through this that I found my way, changed direction, and today, nearly 20 years later, I feel fulfilled, content, and happy in a way that I once only dreamed of but never thought possible.
Thank you, life. Thank you, soul. Thank you, being.
Time and again, I pause amidst the busy everyday hustle, remembering my promise, listening within, creating space for silence, creating space for myself and my soul, the space to connect. It is a source of endless strength, love, and security—my space of peace.
Life needs time – Life needs love – Life needs soul.
And your life needs you, it needs your time, your courage, and your soul. It needs your peace, your love, and your full commitment!
Then it is your life and you are living yourself.
Because that is the best thing that can happen to us:
To live ourselves and finally be who we are.
So that the soul may find its bed in the heart – and the person its happiness.
Warm regards
Petra Eckes
